I don't really want to talk about it. But let's just say it was bad, and I took more steps backward than I have in a long while. I'm trying to get back on track again and organized... try to be normal again.

Because of my panic attacks and depression, I'm changing as much as a I can to get something new in my life. So I made a new deviantart page.
I don't care if you're pissed at me blah blah whatever. I need a better one before I head off to MCAD anyways.

That new one is .
I'm going to post all my new art on their tonight so I hope that account will stay pretty permanent.
Watch me on there, or dont I dont really give a fuck to tell you the truth.
I plan to keep that one a little more professional and get a livejournal to post my journals.

In other news, I leave for Minneapolis to begin my two week art college program. Hopefully its not a letdown.
Peace out for good on this account.

looking for another job so i have one when i get back from my college get-away. i have a promising one and i really hope i get it, its at a used cd store, tons of movies, music, and video games. so awesome.

today was a very good day, so was yesterday! i'm happy.
i have all my art scanned tee hee.

i just wanted to state my feelings towards the painting i left at my friend's house:
"i thought of how to finish you. i miss you greatly and i want to finish you so badly. please come home soon."
and to the painting at the Bemis:
"i hate you even though youre a blank ungesso'd canvas. stop being boring. i need to put ideas on you."

and no you will never see my art.
haha jk. someday soon...

bad night!

I'm probably losing my job at Hot Topic since I'm leaving for 2 weeks for the MCAD Pre-College Program. Apparently you're not allowed to leave for that long and not work. Its so fucking stupid.
But 2 college credits and something that looks amazing on an application... or a retail job. Like thats a tough choice.


I've been thinking a lot about the future.

My good friend Tyler is going to hair school this coming spring and then moving out to San Francisco, CA as soon as possible. He wants me to come haha. We already have a great plan and theres a great art college out there for moi+. We plan to save 2k each (two other people are possibly coming too) and each drive out there, then sell our cars when we get there since its way to busy to drive there, especially as college kids. I dunno I like the idea a lot and I know I can easily get into art college. I was just so settled on MCAD in Minnesota though! Haha we'll see, this shit could all fall through and I dont even know if I'll do it. I still have til next summer to decide.
I just felt like typing all that out, it'll help me sleep tonight since I wont have so much shit on my mind.

Blah blah boring journal!